Making others happy...Ever thought about yourself..??

Last night, I chatted with one of my dear friend over the internet and she asked me...how is your girl friend doing...and my reply was...She is fine I guess...and my reply bemused her..."You guess...what is this Hari...!!!"...I had to explain to her as to how demanding my work was and she said, "All you guys are like this, work is imprtant to you, but so are we I guess..."...soon I got busy and had to sign out...but I had this thought lingering in my mind...and that forced me to write this...

'In life, how many things do we do to make ourselves happy and how many minutes we do things that we want to do?... Make ourselves feel that we are living a life of ours and not for/of someone else, be it anyone/anything you picture in the opposite chair...Life is not about ourself, I do understand that, but you are a peron yourself and you make a mark in others minds and hearts for what you are youself and not what you are for others...How many people are the same and think the same before engaging themself into any kind of a commitment? I would say very few...the elite and lucky few who are not influenced by the external factors in life...of any form or size...

There are many phases in ones life where one makes a shift in his priority list, don't they...at least I did...When I was in my sixth grade, the goals I set for myself was to finish my homework in time, so that my mom lets me sit and watch StreetHawk...Diddy's Comedy Show and other shows which were my world then, then came the second phase, where I had to compromise on cricket and my most passionate sport of my life Tennis when it came to givin priority to my studies...then came college, where one has the best part of his life and i do not blame anyone or anythin..but after college...everything is back to square one again...

Work needs more of your time and your social life is gone, so on and so forth...cause if I say more, this wil be more like whining and complaining which I am not...

I wonder what if there was a life that had you and only you and all you did and all you do is only for yourself...??..If there is a day like that, then trust me...I would not want it to ever end...!!! I wanna live my life for myself...;))

Possesiveness...the darkest evil in disguise...

My dad always used to ask something to me, what is it on Earth that you possess when you enter this life and when you die what is it that you posses? And the answer is simple..NOTHING...!!!

But in the mean time, amidst all the fun and frolic that you have iin your mind and the very lucky few who execute few of the m to success as well, and say I am not possessive about anything or anyone..What the heck are you talkng of..??Are you true to yourself ??? I would say...NOPE...

There is something or the other that you are possessive of in this Earth and trust me..It hurts a lot when you are possessive of someone than something and when something happens with that person, whom you are possessive about...even though they themself are not responsible for what ever happened at any point, but still there is something that hurts....do you know the answer why...It is not because of what ever happened and to what extent it happened...when and how it happened and cause of whom it happened...it is just cause, it is to some special one that this very thinga happened to and even this is not the reason why your are hurt...It is that mere small evil in you, that has only one good reason for its existence in this planet..to HURT..!!

Tell me this, have you ever been so happy that someone you feel possessive of is really happy about something...?? You just shy of saying that, 'Hey he/she os happy, and am happy for him/her...'...but when you are hurt by your possessiveness, how many times have you said, 'Hey it is something that happened to him/her, am sorry for him/her...its not gonna bother me'...but when you are possessive does your mind ever think this way...??Nope, it is true and a fact that...'More than your mind, it is your heart that gets hurt the most...'

So tell me friends...Is it really worth feeling possessive about something or someone...when all it gives you is cribbing, hurt, pain, anger and agony..??

Blessed by Heavens...

I wondered how much do we enjoy smaller things in life...Like getting drenched in the rain without worrying about getting wet, a long peaceful warm shower on a rainy day...a plate of hot crisps and piping hot tea on a gloomy day...the pleasure of spending a moment in your loved ones arms...Have always wondered do the 5 sensed animals feel the same...??

It was for the first time in my life...I thanked God for...Making me a human..who can sense all these and many other little pleasures of life...:))