Just a Touch... :)

July 11th, 2009... I woke up in the morning and I could not take my eyes off the phone.. All I could think of was - 'When am I gonna receive that call' ... and finally the tone that I had set for my dad rang at around 11.00 AM.. I was excited..nervous...anxious.. and above all.. THRILLED.. !!

He asked me to pack my bags and come to Chennai and said nothing more.. !! .. I was stumped.. I expected more out of him.. n as I tried reaching my brother in law, my mother and out of desparation.. even my sister.. !!!.. but - No Luck.. none answered.

Mixed feelings, I managed to board my bus and reached Chennai at around 8. Unable to control my urge, I called my uncle and asked him - 'Where is my sis?'.. and all He could give out was the hospital name...

I rushed to the hospital and enquired at the reception.. (as all my call attempts never made any difference in the result..).. I was directed to room 603.. and as I entered the floor my dad and my brother in law were waiting outside..

I was super furious for such acts of them.. (not answering the phone when its most needed)... and I was about to enter the room... My dad said.. 'Your shoes..'

I removed them and walked inside to see - 'The most cutest sight ever seen in my life - My Little bundle of Joy - My nephew' he was not sleeping and neither he knew what he was doing... but as he waved his hands and legs oin his own rhythm, an occasional touch or kick onto my palm.. ' all my anger went away and I said to myself.. 'I would give my life to protect this darling... ' and kissed my sister on her forehead... and that was the time in my life that I knew... People can cry even when they are happy.. !!

Out of the blue... !!!

Went of to a dizzy last night with loads of things running on my mind (rather imposed on me, that it went on over n over), N i woke up this morning with a lightning bolt question -

" When will people realize, that there is no one's world that revolves around just one person ? "

and am looking for answers... !!!!

How to name it...!!

Compare it to the tenderness of a dew,
Doesn't actually work with all but a few,
When words don't say it all under the hood,
Still you would be understood...

Just a smile or just a tear,
You would want to share,
Neither hopes, nor expectations,
Its pure and beyond words limitations...

If they say diamonds are forever,
I wonder who's that fool..so clever,
More precious than the biggest diamond,
Is a true heart that cares, a friend...!!!

Illusions....

Was cruising along the highway in my car, comforted in an air conditioned cocoon, with afternoon sun in its dehydrating spree, and there it was at a distance, the best part of a heat struck road...the Mirage. Saw it for the first time and was lost when I heard how it was formed...But the beauty of it was, it was there though the watery surface was actually not there...height of illusions if nature...

But this thought happens only for the first time and when you have realized that its an assumption, an illusion, the next time you see it...You know what trick is nature upto with you...

But when it comes to real everyday activities, why is man not able to understand the same..?? Illusions are a part of life, and man has drawn an illusionary veil around him....that he fails to recognize these illusions...

2 U my friend...

Time stood still, against my will,
When I saw it happen, on a eve of kicks n thrill,
Had no words, to explain to all,
But yes I was lost, after the great fall...

Wasn't a fall from a height,
Nor was loss in my might,
But something was not right,
I was loosing a loved one from my sight...

Was blown away,
When I just started to sway,
Word's of comfort, yes people did say,
But in the end, U left me in dismay...

I pray for you to rest,
Though in fate, I lost trust,
Its a promise our kinship will never go down to dust,
Am using this chance, to say you were the best...!!!

Puzzle...

Alienated by space, Lost track of time...
In the lush greens, which I have seen only in my dreams...
Sun's rays masked by the fog...
Heaven on Earth, I was not wrong...
With natures rhyme, like a melody with no words...
Awakening my spirit, from the nailed coffin so cold...
Right was everything, but there was something amiss...
Yelling silence, trying to preach on the missing piece of the puzzle...
All the first letters of this scribble, was the answer in the burst of a bubble...

Once bitten..Twice Shy....!!

I do not know how many of you have experienced what I am experiencing right now...let me pen down and its left for you to answer...

Many things happen in our lives which for the first time make no sense and we are forced to or rather bound to react on the limited scope called REFLEX...be it a physical proocation or a mental one...but if a similar event occurs again one applies his mind and looks for a more concrete solution, thus making him an provoking him to think rather than act in reflex...Why is it?

Nature...My Lovely teacher....

In the arms of nature,
Cradled into a swinging sleep,
Hearing the Earth's song,
Anything and Everything, heavenly and pure...

Placid in its appearence,
Like layers of dew on leaves,
Unfathomed at undefined locations,
Just something like, Human emotions...

What you sow, is what you reap,
Words so simple, unfathomable when thoughts run deep,
The Earth did say something, and so did the prople,
But when the Earth speaks, our voices go feeble...

Never did I think, Ignorance was bliss,
If I did not know it, it was something I missed,
Silence and sight, proved me wrong in this,
At times, Ignorance is heavenly and the ignorant - Blessed...

Time has come to part, from the arms of Mother Nature,
It was an experience, I felt her grand stature,
A smile escaped my lips, with my heart yelling now,
"You always have me, Mother Nature my Love"

P.S...Wrote this when I was in Taman Negara - the national forest of Malaysia..!!

Why does this happen...??

The leaves were swinging with the wind,
But my senses failed to feel them...
A thousand thorns pricked me,
I my search for the most beautiful rose,
Blood was red, and so were the roses...
But it was the roses I saw,
My blood was not in my eyes recognition...
Many beautiful composition passed throuhg my ears,
But my mind failed to realize even a single note...
The moist sand, the aroma of a candle,
Perfumes were beyond my sense of smell...
Lost was I, or was finding myself in You??
These could be the answers, or...
Could be the questions I wanna pose to You,
Lost in the sense of time, my own loud words, became a silent mime...

To You...

Out I was, in a foreign land,
Under the pressure of work, sucking me down like quick sand,
The sunshine scared, more than appealing,
As it marked another day of work, that never heard - "Life's calling"....

Paternal feelings, and missing mothers touch,
Did not seem to worry me, as I did not have the time to even stretch,
Commitments to life, over shadowed by commitments at work,
There I was, not living but but did lurk....

Saw a glimpse of life, when friends were around,
And wanted to live, before work crushed me to ground,
Did few mistakes, thinking of none but my own,
Then you made me realise, Life is not about you alone....

Now I stand on a hanging bridge,
Looking for balance, to prevent myself falling over the ridge,
And there I see your hand, holding me from the fall,
Not for saving me alone, but to pull me up and tell me..."Answer Life's call"...

Helmet or Hell-met...??

Well...this post has been boiling inside me for sometime now and here it comes out...

Wearing a helmet is for ones safety when he/she is on the bike...and it has to be something that has to be realized by people who bother about their own safety and for the people who are not bothered..to hell with them...When they do not care to listen why would you...

Even then, I thought the Government of my state made a bold decision to enforce the "helmet rule", and also the out come was great, people started wearing the helmets from the D-day...and i thought people would now at least be aware of the safety that they were not aware of is now making their chances of surviving an accident more bright...but i do not think anything would change in this country that mixes with politics with everything...right from individual safety...to the fertilizers used for crops in fields...they might fail to mix any component but never miss out - POLITICS...

The so called people do not use their brains or has the IQ in the country gone down so low..?? I saw a news the same evening and people were complaining

-" It feels like a burden on my head when I drive through the traffic..."..Morons- did u ever think about the burden you put on your loved ones if they are gonna hear that you died under a lorry with a head injury??

-"I am not able to see if any vehicle is coming behind me, my view is limited and you cannot expect every vehicle to have a rear view mirror in good condition..."...Dude..install some sense before installing the mirror on your bike...you think paying a mere 50 to 100 bucks for a rear view mirror is a waste of money n time..but if at all you meet up with an accident and one if you are dead..is your life worth only the 100 bucks you saved by not attaching a mirror there? and if my mistake, you survive, do you think all the expenditure for your operations and medicines is gonna be less than that 100 bucks...??

Grow up people, we talk about a brighter India full of youngsters and a youthful population, a responsible youth...answer this question...If you are not freaking responsible about your own life, how is it you are gonna be a part of a responsible society that is gonna make this country better...and my dear loved older people on bikes...If you people do not do it, how would you think the younger generation would...??

Use your brains and to protect it, use the helmet...else, I will meet you folks in HELL...!!!

Another Dream...

Brushing away across the face,
With the warmth of sun's morning rays,
Flowers blossoming with the softest of dew,
My attention on all these, Was something new...

Lost in thoughts, I tried to reason,
What was the cause, that changed my mental season,
In the shroud of dim haze,
I tried to figure my way, through the maze...

Was it the sleep, or was it the Dream?
I did not get an answer, and my mind silently did scream,
For a second, I felt I should have dreamed on,
But voices calling my name, I had to reckon...

Cursing myself, feeling so lost,
I knew that, this dream had a cost,
I should have dreamed on, pricked a li'l thought like a knife,
I would have seen your face, My Love..My Life...